I’m now on day three of my detox plan and it’s going well. On Thursday I had Shakeology for breakfast, baked potato with a little sour cream and cheddar cheese for lunch, half an apple for a snack and a salad for dinner. Friday I had eggs & potatoes with peppers and onions for breakfast, coffee with no sugar, a few handfuls of dried fruit & nuts for a snack, and balsamic roasted vegetables for dinner. And lots of water.
I haven’t noticed any big change in the way I feel so far. My energy levels are about the same, even though my calorie intake is way down. I don’t feel hungry. Any cravings I have are completely emotional and it’s really interesting to take note of this. Thursday, after a tough morning workout and a busy afternoon at homeschool co-op, I definitely felt like a glass of wine and a sugary treat should be my reward, my relaxation. Friday, after an argument with my son, my urge to eat chocolate or pasta was pretty overwhelming. Instead, I took a cup of tea and went to my room.
A lot of times when I’m upset, I’ll clean. And the kitchen is the easiest thing to clean, so I often end up snacking on something. When I took myself away from the kitchen, I found the urge to eat more manageable and soon it was gone. It’s amazing how much I use food for comfort when I really force myself to stop and look at the urges.
One of the hardest things for me to deal with the past couple days has been waste. The bread’s going to get stale if I don’t eat it. My kids’ leftovers are going to waste if I don’t eat them. I’m making smaller portions for the kids now – they can always have seconds. And I’ll keep telling myself that the loaf of french bread on the counter is not the last loaf of french bread I will see in my life. Just because it’s there now, doesn’t mean I have to eat it.
So I think I’m learning a lot about what and why I eat. It won’t be easy to keep up this level of awareness, especially on busy days, but I think I will be more mindful about eating for emotional reasons. Today I’m fasting, in a manner of speaking. I plan to have a Shakeology around lunch time, and just water the rest of the day. I think I might be good and cranky by this evening.